Monday, December 19, 2016

Toes Dancing, Lips Laughing, In the Sun

Dreams of December



As Solstice draws near it seems a good time 
to begin a gratitude list.

3 things I am tres grateful for:

Toenail Clippers   

 
Little known fact, when my back hurts, 
it hurts less 
if I trim my toenails.

The Sun
 (Click on the arrow below to hear Paul Winter's Album Sun Singer
I'm not actually sure I did this right)
 
   
really what can be said? 
It is the  most magnificent glorious thing ever. 
It's beauty is challenged only by the moon. 


I woke up to a 16 degree morning. 
In an hour and a half the sun 
will come and pour itself out 
across the tiny blades of new rye grass 
and sprouts of red clover.

 
I think I'll greet it as it rises.

Lips! 


 Lips are just the best. 
Whole odes could be written about the perfect design that is the lip. 

It is the only flaw in that otherwise perfect creation,

(The fabled Cockatrice) 
 
that descendant of dragons,

(The Dong Tao Chicken)

the humble chicken. 
No lips. Just a beak. 
I saw an X ray of a human head. 
The bones did seem to form a beak-like projection. 
Giving yet more credence to my theory
that humans are descended from birds. 
Which are in turn descended from dragons, 
who I'm pretty sure had lips.

See! Lips!

Amanda Dreaming of Dragons

Monday, November 28, 2016

How To Deal In Hell


Hat tip to Dorothy Parker who used to answer her door with that phrase.

I have a feeling I'll be using it often.

I have no words of wisdom.
I question whether such exist.
I blame the lead paint.

How to deal in hell:


watch the puppies
listen to the puppies
emulate the puppies

they got it goin' on

Da Toes

 

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

In a Riff on Donald Trump’s Slogan, Canadians Tells Their Neighbors That America Is Great (Video) (from @Truthdig)

In a Riff on Donald Trump’s Slogan, Canadians Tells Their Neighbors That America Is Great (Video) (from @Truthdig): In a clip that highlights some of the things the Republican candidate wants to get rid of (diversity, for one), a bunch of friendly Canadians reveal some of the reasons they think their southern neighbor is pretty darn great.
- 2016/10/18

Sunday, September 11, 2016

Learn from the message of the 'Survivor Trees'

 By Denise Oliver Velez  

Each year since 2001, when September 11 rolls around, I take time out to meditate. Today, my thoughts are centered on two trees—both of them, survivors of hate. One is at the site of the Oklahoma City domestic terrorist bombing that took place on April 19, 1995. The other is at the National September 11 Memorial & Museum site in New York City.

I remember going in to work at the World Trade Center each morning prior to that day. Sometimes I took the subway, sometimes I drove in from our home in Astoria, Queens, and later when my husband and I moved out of New York City to the Hudson Valley, I drove in really early to miss rush hour traffic on the New York State Thruway and New Jersey Palisades Parkway. I had a beautiful view of the Twin Towers as I got closer to Manhattan, from the Jersey side of the Hudson River.

I remember all my co-workers at the National Development and Research Institutes (NDRI) who occupied the entire 16th floor of 2 World Trade Center. ... I remember the faces of the security guards, many of whom were immigrants from Africa, who’d smile and check my ID as I entered the building. I used to greet one of them in Yoruba. He was elated by my attempt to speak his language. I remember the man from Pakistan who sold me lunch almost daily from a vending cart. We would exchange polite greetings in Arabic. He used to use the prayer room on the 17th floor. I remember meeting one of my coworkers each morning to buy a bagel with cream cheese and coffee in the basement area. We would laughingly complain to the Mexican-American counter guy about the fact that we couldn’t get cafe con leche, Puerto Rican style. Then we’d head back up to the 16th floor and get to work. That work, for me, was AIDS research. We also had a field office in El Barrio (Spanish Harlem) so I didn’t have to spend every day in a sealed office tower made of glass and steel. But home base was in the Towers, where we were a multicultural, multiethnic staff. My boss was a Jewish Cuban.

All that ended for me one morning—a morning that I didn’t make it in to work because our sump pump broke. Throughout the days that followed, no matter how sad, angry, or horrified I became, it never occurred to me to lay blame on anyone other than the perpetrators and those who sent them. Sadly, I had to worry more about some of my fellow citizens, blinded by hatred because of how my husband Nadhiyr looks.
In spite of that, and in spite of the whipped-up fear, anger, and vileness boiling over from certain quarters of our populace, I have hope.

The Survivor Tree elm at the Oklahoma City National Memorial.
attribution: Dustin M. Ramsey 

 Things that grow have always given me hope. Flowers and trees don’t discriminate, and we can learn a lot from that. Out of the ashes of death and destruction, new life persists. The elm majestically spreading its branches in Oklahoma City is a symbol of life after a bombing that took more than 100 lives—many of whom were children in a day care center. Those who died looked like a cross-section of America.
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Witness to Tragedy, Symbol of Strength


It is more than 90 years old. An American Elm Tree in the heart of downtown Oklahoma City, it survived the bomb’s blast and witnessed one of the worst terrorist attacks on American soil. Today, we call it the Survivor Tree.
Before the bombing, the tree was important because it provided the only shade in the downtown parking lot. People would arrive early to work just to be able to park under the shade of the tree’s branches.
On April 19, 1995, the tree was almost chopped down to recover pieces of evidences that hung from its branches due to the force of the 4,000 pound bomb that killed 168 and injured hundreds just yards away. Evidence was retrieved from the branches and the trunk of the tree.
When hundreds of community citizens, family members of those who were killed, survivors and rescue workers came together to write the Memorial Mission Statement, one of its resolutions dictated that “one of the components of the Memorial must be the Survivor Tree located on the south half of the Journal Record Building block.”
Rowland Denman, the Memorial Foundation’s volunteer Executive Director and Richard Williams, District Manager for the General Services Administration Oklahoma division, called upon the expertise of Mark Bays, an urban forester with the Oklahoma Department of Agriculture, Food and Forestry. Bays developed a plan to save the tree and has taken it on as his project for the last nine years. The asphalt that lined the parking lot was pulled away from the tree to begin improving the conditions around it. Seeds were taken and seedlings were grown. The tree began to thrive.
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 Like Oklahoma City, New York City has its own survivor tree.




A Callery pear tree became known as the "Survivor Tree" after enduring the September 11, 2001 terror attacks at the World Trade Center. In October 2001, the tree was discovered at Ground Zero severely damaged, with snapped roots and burned and broken branches. The tree was removed from the rubble and placed in the care of the New York City Department of Parks and Recreation. After its recovery and rehabilitation, the tree was returned to the Memorial in 2010. New, smooth limbs extended from the gnarled stumps, creating a visible demarcation between the tree’s past and present. Today, the tree stands as a living reminder of resilience, survival and rebirth.


It was the last living thing rescued from the ruins of 9/11. A dozen years later, one mythical pear tree is finally home, and branching out from Ground Zero in mystical ways.
For a few years, the 9/11 Survivor Tree was lost.
Well, not really lost. Richie Cabo, horticulturalist for the Parks Department, knew exactly where it was. Since shortly after 9/11/01, he had been taking loving care of the callery pear tree at a nursery in the Bronx. But Ron Vega of the National September 11 Memorial & Musuem had no idea where the tree was. And he wanted to bring it home.
Vega had heard rumors of the Survivor Tree's existence from co-workers. Its story had taken on almost mythic proportions: the last living thing to come out of the rubble of Ground Zero, a charred stump that, to an untrained eye, looked dead. Apparently, someone from some governmental agency was taking care of the tree, although no one knew who or where. Eventually, after a lot of asking around, Vega tracked down the Survivor Tree and set in motion its second act.
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It feels really good to see young people of all colors and backgrounds in New York City working together to help with growing survivor seedlings. 

My husband’s former roommate, an immigrant from Panama, was one of the first responders on September 11. He died several months after 9/11 of respiratory failure. He was an EMS supervisor who stayed on the scene working around the clock for days. My girlfriend’s brother, who is Puerto Rican, was a Port Authority police officer who died, as one of the first on the scene. 

Over the years, I’ve talked with spouses, children, parents, and friends in New York who lost someone as a result of that day. They represent the mosaic of race, class, ethnicity, and religion that is the New York metropolitan area. Not one of them has blamed an entire religion. Not one of them has expressed a desire to deport immigrants, or close our borders. I’m sure there are people who feel that way. I just haven’t met them. 

Me … I just want to plant trees, and sow seeds of sanity. The answer to hatred is love, fertilized by education and empathy. 

We have a choice: Be like those survivor trees and spread our branches to shelter all comers … or wither away and die, poisoned by vitriol.
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~I hope you enjoy this as much as I.  Da Toez!

Sunday, August 14, 2016

Truthdiggers of the Week: The Refugee Olympic Team: Natasha Hakimi

Truthdiggers of the Week: The Refugee Olympic Team: Natasha Hakimi: The 10 athletes competing without a flag or anthem at the Rio Olympics are challenging conceptions of nationalism, as well as reminding the world that the growing refugee crisis must be addressed.
- 2016/08/13

Friday, August 12, 2016


Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass. 
It's about learning to dance in the rain 

 Teh Demitoes Rain Dance  

I believe I believe I believe it's gonna rain!

 Little drops
fallin' down
from the sky
and the ground
she is laughin'
Little worms are slappin'
head to their tails
tappin' to sound
of the thunder rollin' round

 I'm awaitin' awaitin' awaitin' for the ra-a-ain
pour down on me oh-ho make it soooo
come little drops... come to mama...
ya know ya know ya know ya wanna

 tiny packs
of moist salvation
the faithful await
your damp salutation
Oh clouds roll above me
show me you love me
show me that you mean it
when you say you'll come
 
 I'm awaitin' awaitin awaitin for the ra-a-ain
pour down on me oh-ho make it soooo
come little drops... come to mama...
ya know ya know ya know ya wanna
 
No slam bam thank you mam
I need a 
sustained rain
soakin deep and dirty down
who knows when next
you'll be around
make it count make it last
I want the good stuff 
slow and vast
 
 I'm awaitin' awaitin awaitin for the ra-a-ain
pour down on me oh-ho make it soooo
come little drops... come to mama...
ya know ya know ya know ya wanna
 
Any minute now... 
Da Toez

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

The Dem Convention! Are You Watching?

 Oh Baby! Oh Baby! Oh Baby!

 1995 

A Wal-Mart store pulls off its shelves a popular T-shirt with the character Margaret, from Dennis the Menace. 
On the T-shirt were the words  

Someday a woman will be president 

A buyer for Wal-Mart’s national office in Bentonville, AR told her the store would not carry the shirt nationwide because the message  

goes against Wal-Mart’s family values


2016 Twitter 

My youngest daughter: who's that? 

Me: That's Bill Clinton.  

Her: Is he related to Hillary Clinton? 

And 

last night my child was agog that he (Bill) was ever POTUS.

Finally asked, But she was really in charge then, right? 

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Hahahaha! Oh be still my heart. I just love that. 

O.M.G.

What an incredible Convention!

All the misery and disgust generated by the other party's nomination of cheeto-jesus, the orange tiny-handed man has been blown out the window.

 The Dem Convention is the best I've ever seen. It is hilarious, moving and inclusive. It looks, feels and sounds like the America we all know is here. The America of dreams and shattered glass. The sorrow and the stuggle. The joys and the accomplishments. 

All those beautiful strong women. All those confident wonderful men. It's just a damned joyous beautiful fucking thing. My heart and soul are totally lifted. And Goddess did I need this!

Are we all watching Fabettes? Because this is so Fabette-Worthy. And I don't say that about many things. Well I've never typed it. But I have thought it. So ya know, there's that. 

I have C-Span going in the background, watching the repeat from yesterday. Although I do have it on tape, for those moments in the next 100 days when I start feeling a little chicken-little coming on.  

In the immortal words of Meg Ryan's Sally:

Yes! YESSS! YEEESSS!!!

~Demitoestingling

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Agy Queen of Hearts Birthday!



Agy Rose Queen
 
 We loveth you so. Our reasons are legion
You see past the walls that people erect
you're so charming and witty and funny as fuck
Ya big softie at heart, though easily stressed.
You bounce back when your down, with plenty of pluck

Sunday, July 17, 2016

Visualizing Love


 The body remembers. 
Even when people have lost their memory, even when a brain injury or shock has blocked the memories of how to do something, the body remembers. 

I lay down paths throughout my life. 
I walk those paths again and again and again until it becomes second nature. Reacting to loss, deprivation and betrayal I have created paths outlined by markers of fear. Those paths have become so well honed, I can run them blindfolded. 

When I try to move beyond my fear 
I discover my feet treading the same old well worn road. As though I am magnetically glued to it. That makes me angry. The anger can raise me out of the fear. And that feels so refreshing, empowering. At once both a release and an acquisition. In trying to raise myself out of fear, I have changed lanes, but it is still the same road, the same path defined by my fear. The anger relieves the feeling of powerlessness. But it only lasts for that moment and must be repeated with each encounter. I visualize those encounters. I have imagined conversations as I lay my head down to sleep. I feel them emotionally. I feed them and reinforce that old path again and again.

Visualization is a tricky concept. 

What does that mean? How do I do that? Do I see it in my mind's eye? How do I do that? There are a kajillion tricks to making it work. Cut out pictures of your desired outcome, your dreams. See them real, feel them, feel what's stopping them, tell a story about them. And that's what I'm doing with my fear and/or my anger. Honing that familiar path. Polishing it with my fear til it shines like a diamond.

The body can learn a new path. 

I can teach it by feeding it a new visualization. And there is one visualization that can be done with any or none of of the above "tricks".  That is visualizing love. You know it when you feel it. That care for another, that empathy, that warm feeling that envelops our hearts. Sometimes it's with tears. Sometimes it makes my toes tingle. Sometimes the feeling is so full, it transports us. Our bodies already know this feeling and we can cull it from memory. Love needs no justification. It just is. It has the capacity to expand from a sometime traveled back road to a well-worn personal highway. It is a simple tool to create a new path for times of anxiety. I don't have to visualize loving the object of my fear. I  can just feel love for anything, for anybody. It's especially powerful if I can feel love for mwaself in that moment of fear or anger. But that's harder, for me at least. While letting the sense memory of feeling love is not that hard. It just takes repetition.

This week 

and continuing of horrible violence leaves me feeling an intolerable fear, powerlessness and anger. I have reached to find an answer for myself. I realized the violence in Dallas, happening so close to Dealey Plaza brought back the memories of the Kennedy assassination. At 16, I'd skipped school that day to watch the president arrive at Market Hall. I was staring down at it when the news came. My insular little world crashed that day. And it all came screaming back on July 7th. I felt that familiar path take me once again. And I realized that was my path. I built that and I want a new way. I want my body's memory to better serve me. Then I need to teach it a different dance.  I need something simple that I already know how to do. A thing that requires little thought and I can do immediately and often. And finally something I am not only willing to do, but something I want to do.

So here I am, at visualizing love. 

As long as I don't insist that I feel love for the object of my fear, I've found it not difficult and it calms me. I can think of no better way to make both the world's world and my little world a better place. And when I am wrapped in the horror of it, it is indeed the best I can do.


Love
DemiLoveToez

Thursday, July 7, 2016

July 7th ~ Star Healing with the FABS

July 7th ~ Star Healing with the FABS 



July is a month sacred to many a Goddess

One of these is Sopdet, Egyptian Sky Goddess of the stars who personified the Dog Star, Sirius

She was often portrayed as a cow with a star between her horns. 
 


 We teh Fabs, lend ourselves to the stars tonight. We feel ourselves part of the darkness and part of the light that shines through that darkness. We feel ourselves spinning with the galaxy, dancing with shadows and moonbeams

Whirling Fabettes!

  Let wonder at the universe enchant us. Even in the darkness there are stars. Without the dark we would never see them, never know them. Even in the depths of the darkest Ocean there is the creation of light. We gaze at the wonder of the night, at the wonder of this life.

From the deep dark shine the stars,
the brighter their beauty to see    
Accepting the blackness of this night
Letting the stardust send its light 
healing and glowing in us from afar
So mote it be So mote it be So mote it be
 

Monday, June 20, 2016

The Full ‘Strawberry Moon’ Meets The Summer Solstice

   
 Oh Fabs, we have a great magic moon dancing tonight with our Solstice!

 Mon Sherry, you will prolly be the only Fabulous Fab to see this. But it's pretty cool, no?

On June  20, 2016, the Full Moon appears on the same night as the summer solstice.

 This hasn't happened since we were tiny Fabettes. According to the Old Farmer's Almanac, the last time was 1948. 

The sun rises at its leftmost spot on the horizon and sets at its rightmost position. By landing exactly on the solstice, this Full Moon doesn’t just rise as the Sun sets but is opposite the Sun in all other ways too. The Sun gets super high so this Moon must be super-low. Even at its loftiest, it’s downright wimpy-low. This forces its light through thicker air, which also tends to be humid this time of year, and the combination typically makes it amber colored.

This is the true Honey Moon.

  It is known by various names: Honey moon and strawberry moon. In Europe they call it the Rose moon, la lune rose in France. The Chinese call it the lotus moon.  
 
It is called the honey moon because it stays close to the horizon in June, and that can make it take on an amber color. The Algonquin tribes first called June's full moon a strawberry moon because it coincided with the best time to pick the fruit. 

According to NASA, low-hanging moons can look unnaturally large when they beam through trees, buildings and other foreground objects. It's been called the "moon illusion."
Why? Nobody actually has a definitive answer. Researchers have been theorizing about it for years.

A low-hanging moon is actually no wider than any other moon (that's been proven with cameras), but the human brain can see it differently.
If you want to see a big June moon then the best time will be at moonrise.
  
 Tonight! Monday, June 20, at 8:00 PM EDT | 5:00 PM PDT | 00:00 UTC 

I'm not sure I did these links correctly and I can't figure out how to make sure. So...

 The Old Farmer’s Almanac and Slooh will broadcast the show from the world’s largest telescope right to YOUR computer or mobile from our partner Slooh’s flagship observatory at the Institute of Astrophysics in the Canary Islands.



Demimoontoes

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Oh Frogs...


Oh the humble frog with it's humbelly, spirit of rain, goddess of the moon, Tlaltecuhtii earth mother! So nice to hang with you here my friends. As I am donning very best frog face to greet the hopping people,  Note: doing the frogs lips make your nostrils huge. Every time I look at that image, I just see these giant nostrils. The sacrifices one makes for the toad souls! You'll have to click on the pic to properly appreciate the DemiToad's nostrils~
 
 After my post a week or so ago, I kept checking back but no one posted. So I decided not to wait any longer, to do a new post and just see what happens. This me at one of the garden centers posing with the frogs. I have this friend who loveth the frogs, you know who you are! so naturally the frogs, they called to me. And I called right back!

It's still raining here. The ditch digging has been stymied by the rain. Playing with the dog was a giant failure and I am now meditating on his puppy happiness! Things are humming or rather dripping along. I know I said I wanted to be in Oregon, But this with the endless rain and terminal drizzle is so not what I had in mind. 

Somebody's chickens flew the coop. A pair were last seen sauntering down the sidewalk heading for towards Walgreens. I hope they know what they're doing.

How is everybody? I am doing better and better each day. As are the mosquitoes! They're in fine form, fit and ready to go. I was looking at bat houses cause I read somewhere that bats eat lots of skeeters. Who's got rain?  And who wants some?:

 The Aymara tribe of Peru and Bolivia made small frog images, which they placed on hilltops, to call down the rain.

I'm wondering if there's a sending it back,  like 'talk to the hand' rain or 'get thee hither to a dry spot' rain. Surely there is. And it must be easier than calling down rain, right? I mean this rain's already here. I should be able to just skooch over it. Shouldn't I? Who wants some rain?

DemiToad

Saturday, March 26, 2016

Saturday, February 6, 2016

Progressives Nationwide Seek to Take Bernie Sanders’ ‘Political Revolution’ Into Congress

Progressives Nationwide Seek to Take Bernie Sanders’ ‘Political Revolution’ Into Congress: Zephyr Teachout of New York, John Fetterman of Pennsylvania and Lucy Flores of Nevada want to take on Wall Street, big oil and the military-industrial complex—and they’re all mounting bids for Congress.
- 2016/02/04

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Iceland Sentences 26 Corrupt Bankers To 74 Years In Prison

Iceland Sentences 26 Corrupt Bankers To 74 Years In Prison: By Grouch E Geezr for AmericanNewsX.com. Iceland just sentenced their 26th banker to prison for his part in the 2008 economic collapse. The charges ranged from breach of fiduciary duties to market ...